boozey

god this work is unpredictable in terms of $$$. yesterday was THE slowest shift EVER. but i did get to chat with a co-worker i hardly ever work with, who is also a portland native (an oddity, believe me! it always seems like nobody else is "from here"). she used to know my sister and my sister's ex-girlfriend. i thought that was so cute.

this girl had given up drinking recently and i got that feeling i often get when people tell me that: happy for them, but also a tiny bit jealous. i have been starting to wish i didn't drink so often. i keep thinking i will take some time off, but then i find myself at work with guys buying me drinks left and right. or in some unpleasant social situation. which is to say just about ANY social situation here in portland. and then i have a drink to put myself a little more at ease. i don't even usually get drunk, but i find myself drinking more and more often in a medicinal "nerve calming" sense. i used to be so self-assured without a drop of booze, but in SF my fashion was my social lubricant. here people don't care as much about that.

hmm what else. oh! well last night i went to see stand-up comedy and i knew i'd see people who i feel awkward or bad around but i challenged myself not to drink and i didn't. not even when my ex-girlfriend and her new gf showed up. so there! (p.s. i'd like to mention that kat from katstories blog did stand up and was hilarious! yes!)

now i feel like i wanna tell you that i drink to chill out and feel less socially awkward about half of the time. the other 50% of my drinking time is comprised of just plain LOVING TO DRINK. like playing cards with a glass of wine: perfect.